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Tonight, while doing my nightly chores, one of those chores is watering the bushes, trees, grass, and plants. Most of these are plants that give us fruit or vegetables to consume throughout the year, or the grass that we can cut, or let our bunnies eat while theyre leashed.
One of the trees is a small peach tree we got a few years ago. That made me remember when I was small, we had a huge peach tree—like 10 or 20 meters tall. It dawned on me how time passes. This tree (hopefully) will grow as big as that one someday.
I started wondering: How long will it take for this tree to grow that big? How old will I be then? How will I be then? Will I be standing here, proudly watching as my grandchildren play and climb the tree? Or will I be under it, giving it the nourishment it needs?
I dont know.

Fuckin hate dreaming sometimes.
I dreamed that I made a very cool and awesome friend and we spent lots and lots of time together. We spent so much time together—it felt like forever. We met at university during some event I wasn’t even supposed to attend. They had lost one of their hands below the wrist, but their style was flawless. They wore mostly green clothes, glasses, and had long hair. Their personality was incredibly bubbly and warm. We talked about everything under the sun while riding public transport, shared stories with other friends, and laughed a lot. One night, after they and their boyfriend went to sleep, I stayed over and crashed on the couch and then i woke up.
The drenching reality hits me: it is not a real person, they are not my friend and I will never ever have a connection like this with a person like this. A turly horrible feeling and for a solid 10-25 minutes i get this feeling of something missing. I just sat there, missing something I never had and never will.
So stupid. Why are dreams like this?

As a German i have heard a song called "Kartoffelsalad" a song made by a grandma singing about diffrent types of salats and how to make them. Shes using a swabian dialect that is really hard to understand for multible people. What bothered me that i have not seen a lyrics video of it so i decided to make one!! You can listen to it and read the translated engish, normal german and swabian lyrics [ Here ].

So I've been wanting to get out more from my home and meet new people, and I found an excellent app for it. Its called [ Nomadtable ]. It was originally designed for travellers, but locals also use it to find people for events. It basically shows you a map where you can see events that people are hosting, and you can create your own too. If you decide that an event sounds good, you click a button, and you will be placed in a little group chat with them.

These are so usefull and cheep. I Buyed one in a local shop a few months ago for 1.2€ and have been using them ever since. They are so usefull to scrape off Nazi or other hatefull stickers n stuff. I really recomend it. I like to take a picture before and after the place i cleaned. Honestly its so disgusitng, how can people exist with so much hate against others who never interracted with them.

Happy Starwars day! Im happy to say that the voting has begun on what Minecraft version should the new game be and im thinking of making new videos. While this is all good and dandy, im facing some hardship in uni. I feel like im too dumb to be studying this, like i dont deserve to be here. All the math part of Electiccal Engineering is so hard to keep for me in my head. Im highly reconsidering switching majors to something other then this. I feel often that im the deffinition of "jack of all traits, but master of none" Soo many things intrest me and i know a lot about a certain topic but i lack the discipline and deeper knowlage to achually make something off so i could live and earn money in this world.

Im really busy with university right now but im actively working to make stickers, patches and Necklaces with Vitakross. Followers who had put down the oath will get one necklace for free. I found two people who have accses to a laser cutter and im planning on making the solidwork files myself so the guy only needs to cut these. The stickers are gonna be cheep to make too becouse im personally planning them and going to the printing press, printing them out and making the whole procces so i only need to pay for materials. Stay tuned for updates!!

The minecraft server that is running right now is really laggy. I dont know what happened but apparently a modded jumping creeper exploded and now people get 1 frames per sec. Im gonna make a poll about this in the discord ofc but i dont know if i should try to run it on the latest minecraft version. Im not really sure if my cheep server can handle running it.